Monday, January 3
woke up this morning dreading the day. was positively nauseous as the car neared sch.. but when i climbed out i saw jan walking towards me from the opposite direction. decided to take it as a good sign that neither of us had to wait for the other. found out that hc decided to have ogs this year.. and that we were in different ogs. but we basically spent the day in the auditorium listening to talks.. i'm fine with that, but only if you give me a comfortable chair and a pillow to sleep on. after that.. mass dancing. the councilors do it quite nicely. but there was one couple dance.. and i had to partner this ugly ri guy in my og who didn't want to let go of my hand. i had to snatch my hand away every time. it would be more fun to do the mass dances with people i cared about or at least knew, but i guess that's not an option. i have to try to make friends tmr. even though everyone i've seen so far is ugly. now i know how that sounds. like i only befriend beautiful people. but that's not true. fine i just don't want to make friends with them. maybe the girls. but not the guys. never the guys. i wanna run away to sa. be with y'all. not have ppl stare at the dots. not have ppl laugh. not have ppl talk. i wanna run away.
it must've been love.
6:36 pm
xoxo
